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[memorizingthedigitsofpi]

I'm trying to decide what I want to use this space for, and I'm kind of tempted to use it for the posts that I tag as "thinky thoughts" over on tumblr.

tumblr's great for a lot of things - obviously, I've been blogging there for almost a decade. But it can also get overwhelming sometimes.

My personal account there is semi-dormant since I tend to think of that as a place where I can hyperfixate on my fandom of choice and interact with other people in that fandom - but I don't currently have a fandom that I'm obsessed with the way I was with my last one.

I do miss that feeling, though. A lot.

So I think I might use this space to dump all of these thoughts that I have about social media and fandom and the various discourses that keep me up at night. This is a better forum to have those kinds of conversations. Even when I reblog other people's opinions on tumblr, it feels too much like I'm an audience member watching a conversation rather than an actual participant in it. Especially when so many of the speakers are actually just whispering in their tags.

Comments

[unatorre]

Isn't it the worst when one is between fandoms to hyperfixate about? I always feel somewhat adrift….

[memorizingthedigitsofpi]

the woOOOoorst (said in the voice of Jean Ralphio)

I've been without hyperfixation for like 2.5 years now and I miss it so sososoo much

[unatorre]

Oh no, that's rough.
I always end up trying to watch shit i know i won't like in an attempt to find literally anything that can hold my attention, and i hate it. And sometimes i find something and i'm like “oh that's cute, let's see if there's some fanfic about it” and I read a couple of one shots and then completely forget about it ever again. Rinse and repeat for the next attempt.
Is fandom itself an addiction? Like, is the feeling itself of being consumed by an interest something that at one point you can't live without? Idk. It's not even like i don't have other hobbies….

[memorizingthedigitsofpi]

For me, I have what could probably be considered "normal amounts" of interest in all sorts of fandoms, but none are currently grabbing me enough to make me desperate to create for them. I've only really had that two or three times in 20 years, so I might just have to accept I've got another 5 years of wandering aimlessly before I hit paydirt again.

I think there might be something to that addiction thing, but it's probably more about the joy and the community than it is about the interest itself - at least for me.

[wolfish_willow]

Oh man, I was in the same boat for about the same amount of time even. There was fic that I could read in that time, but creating was out of the question. Tried really hard to write for what I was reading but it wasn't the same as it had been when I'd been neck deep in Supernatural fic for a while there.

Heh so yeah being between hyperfixations is rough!

[memorizingthedigitsofpi]

lol I actually got an FFN favourite on a Supernatural fic last week and I was like "did I write SPN fic?" Turns out I wrote a few back in like 2012 or 2013.

my last neck-deep fandom was Agents of SHIELD and I just haven't found something to replace it since I left it in season 5. Give me a show with humour and found family and a ship where they're both nerds who are also bantery. There are probably a million with those elements and yet, I can't seem to find one XD

[wolfish_willow]

It sounds like it should be so easy, but unfortunately we get absolutely no say in what we obsess over. It's not fair darnit!

[memorizingthedigitsofpi]

right? I totally disapprove of this unfair system! XD