I think it's partly the layout but also just the fact that you know whatever you say is going to stay here and not get broadcast out to a thousand people. it makes it a lot easier to have a conversation when it feels like there's no one watching you have that conversation. the thing about tumblr is that it's hard to keep anything private - and I admit that the way I run my blog makes that even harder.

I definitely felt the racism when I live in Korea, but I also still had massive amounts of privilege. It was a weird dichotomy, definitely. Like, my boyfriend's parents loved it when we were hanging out as friends because he was getting "free english lessons" but when we started dating his dad literally said he no longer had a son and refused to acknowledge his presence and his mother was similar in her opinions. At the same time, I made more money than my local counterparts and people would offer me free stuff or try to be my friend just because of my face.

that trope thing is really interesting. I want to think about that more. You've got a really great point and I definitely have the beginnings of thoughts but I need them to gel a bit more. I don't need sleep, but maybe a nap? XD

and yeah, the amount of internalized bullshit I've had to get over in order to live my life? ridiculous.