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Prix ([personal profile] prixmium) wrote2025-10-03 08:00 am

Obligatory Taylor Swift Post

Taylor Swift fandom did not catch me as early as it did the person I used to talk about Taylor Swift with a lot. The person I have in mind collected all her physical CDs from the very first.

Recently, I have not heard much from that person. It kind of hurts that she doesn't really know much about what's going on with my life anymore. I know she's been going through burnout and fatigue, but it has been a thought process over the past couple of weeks to realize that even though she has kind of removed herself from my everyday sphere of thought that there's a part of my heart that is hurting for her absence.

It's not that I don't care about her, and I believe that she probably thinks she cares about me. I just think that she has this very immediate-local-reality locus of attention these days for herself. I know that a couple of years ago, she was a bit more online again, and it burnt her. But she and I met online, and it's like she used to understand my way of life and that my relationships are, by necessity, fairly online-focused.

A couple years ago, during that getting-burnt part, she thanked me for being there for her and indicated that had it not been for me that she might have been much worse off or in real danger due to the fallout of that situation. But then, as she cocooned away to try and begin the process of healing, she just pretty much vanished from my life.

She pops in every now and then, and for a while, I left her breadcrumbs or dead bird offerings, like a cat, hoping that when she bothered to check her discord notifications that she would respond to my thoughts toward her or care to show her things she liked. Sometimes, it worked.

For the most part, however, she would come in with whatever new thing she wanted to say with little or no acknowledgment of the backlog of links. And I get that the longer she was away, the more daunting 10 or 12 links might become, over the course of weeks and months. However, something kind of punched me in the chest a little.

I told her about Charlie's passing. It was just a small message. I thought she might notice or care, as her pets and stress over her aging dog has sometimes been a reason for her long-term absence or stated inability to have deep conversations. I know that, in the past, she has told me about how she only has "meme sharing" energy for people. And, to some degree, I can relate and sympathize with that. I try really, really hard to just keep telling myself that this is such a time for her and that she is dealing with what might be some kind of chronic fatigue disorder.

I try my best to reason with my emotions. But she didn't even notice the message. When I asked her if she'd seen it, she even excused it as having gotten lost in the shuffle of my sending her other relevant-to-her links. So, I told her something to the effect of, "Well, if they're too much for you to go through at this time, I'll stop sending so many."

This was two-pronged in a way. On the one hand, I mean it for both our sakes. If my efforts are not any kind of comfort to her and are just some kind of thing to maybe or maybe not bother with when she has 15 minutes of energy for interacting with me, quarterly at best it seems, then I don't think I should curate anything for her with the thought that it will be well-received or that I should give her some hypothetical social obligation to fulfill or not. On the other hand, I was really hurt that she doesn't even look at my messages closely enough, before sending one of her quarterly messages, to see if I have left a comment there about anything major in my life. Even something like losing a pet when, as I said, she has more than once put a pin in everything in her life in a very vocal and clear boundary-setting way about dealing with her pets.

When I said this, she said something like, "Do whatever's best for you."

I don't think it can be much more clear that there is a kind of dismissal of my importance and feelings there. At least, I have to assume there is.

If our relationship is ever solid enough again for me to send her this post to read, I hope that she doesn't feel angry or slighted by the fact that I am talking about her in vague terms to my online journal that's really only read by a handful of acquaintances. Because it's not like I can talk about it with her with the expectation that I will be heard anytime soon.

I kind of anticipate that she'll reach out in a few days when she's had time to listen to and digest the Taylor Swift album. That's one of "our things" together. It's a shared interest we know we have with each other even when other people in our lives don't share it.

But what counts as "in each other's lives"?

I get that people, especially married people and people with "professional" faces on their careers, have this tendency to compartmentalize and only come back to certain aspects of their lives when they have the time and emotional space for it. I do the same thing... to a degree. But I can't help but feel like I've been through two or three deep crises since she kind of dropped out of regular circulation in my life. And sure, maybe it's because her own crisis of energy and deep burnout is somehow so much worse than I understand.

But friendship is a two way street.

Read more... )
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Riona ([personal profile] rionaleonhart) wrote2025-10-03 01:02 pm

Fanfiction: The Taking Part (Kingdom Hearts, Hayner/Pence/Olette/Roxas)

Attention to Kingdom Hearts fans: there's a new Kingdom Hearts kinkmeme over at [community profile] khkinkanon, if you'd like to request or write some Kingdom Hearts smut! (Or non-smut, which is fortunate for me, given my general lack of smut-writing abilities! Although it isn't mentioned on the prompt post itself, the FAQ post specifies that all ratings are welcomed.)

I saw a cute prompt for Hayner/Pence/Olette/Roxas, which is an OT4 I've always liked the idea of but never actually managed to write, so here's a fic! I... think this is actually the first fill on the kinkmeme, and I'm slightly embarrassed to kick things off with something so unkinky, but I enjoyed getting these four together nonetheless.


Title: The Taking Part
Fandom: Kingdom Hearts
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Hayner/Pence/Olette/Roxas
Wordcount: 1,500
Summary: “A kissing contest?” Hayner demands. “Seriously?”


The Taking Part )
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Van Irie ([personal profile] yvannairie) wrote2025-10-03 12:25 pm

Spaceposting 3.10.

I woke up thinking about the Terran pendant and how Shrike taking it off Jaw Bone and then trying to find a way to give it to Beebs is a peace offering. "If it makes you feel better--", he says, because he knows it's valuable, but he chose to give it to Beebs because at least they can sell it if Beebs doesn't appreciate that Shrike is trying to make a bid for connection (through his interests, the same way we know Beebs has done for him. They do it in episode 3 at each other)

(I'm on the floor crying.)

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mistressofmuses ([personal profile] mistressofmuses) wrote2025-10-02 09:06 pm

Writing Goals/Calendar: October 2025

I think I've pretty much given up on having anything written—at least to a completed state—this year. It's been a rough year for creative writing for me. I have written some stuff, and I even surpassed my 75000 word goal, but it's been on more meta stuff like this, where I'm planning, or on reviews of the books I've been reading. It is stuff that I count as "writing," but isn't the fiction writing I ostensibly enjoy doing.

World... stuff... certainly isn't getting any better, or inspiring much more creativity. Even so, while I don't think I will get any projects to completion any time soon, my hope right now is to get more of the planning done so that I will be in a better spot to actually get some of that writing done eventually. (Even if that's next year.)

My goals for September were:
- Look into Bluesky and the writing community there
- Figure out what I wanted my "next steps" to be (what process do I want to go through for the potential projects I may work on?)
- Pick a WIP to start on
- Start collecting images from sites like Unsplash, for future use in moodboards, covers, etc.

And how did I do on those?
- Well, I did look into Bluesky a bit, and there do seem to be a lot of writers there. I found multiple good curated feeds for writing topics, but I feel like I don't have a good understanding on how to jump from passively scrolling those feeds to actually engaging with them (much less how to be included in them.)
Unfortunately, bsky then fairly promptly shit the bed with some frustratingly broad content restrictions that will be forthcoming. I'm not particularly concerned that anything I would be posting would fall under the restricted content, but it's sort of a "principle of the thing" issue. Way too often, opening the door to these types of restrictions means that the allowed content will forever be whim to "but the board/high-profile users/advertisers/payment processors/whiny babies offsite think something is icky." Even more often, those restrictions will be used to target specific users, even if it's a massive stretch to do so. I remember strikethrough on LiveJournal. So now I feel a lot less excited to invest time and energy into trying to build a community on a site that I don't trust the moderation policies of.

- I did figure out a sort of next steps plan. I've tried for a while to figure out a way to work on multiple WIPs at once, ideally having different works at different stages of completion, to give myself some variety. (If I was excited about a new project, I could plan it; I could work on writing the first draft of something; if writing brain wasn't working, then I could have something ready for editing, etc.) I floundered when trying to figure out how to get the things to those different stages, because the hypothetical plans always seemed to wind up with lots of things stuck in the same stage. Now I think I did come up with a reasonable "plan" of sorts, by thinking of "types" of projects rather than specific WIPs.
In the short term, it does mean doing like, four planning documents, and then three outlines in a row, but I do think that after that, it'll be easy to keep the projects staggered.

- I decided on one of my WIPs to start with! It's one of the original ones, so it'll wind up on the pen name account. After that, my intent is to poke at the Worldhopping Fairytale Monstrosity fic (because either it needs to happen or needs to get shelved); then a different original project (maybe the one I wimped out on the draft of earlier this year); then a shorter fic project.

- I did do one unsplash dig, but haven't made it into a habit or anything.

In addition to that:

- I did get the self-intro for the first WIP done! This is just the quick intro that's designed to make sure I can orient myself in the general vibes that I want for the project, and a reminder of all the bits I want to be sure to include.

My goals for October:
- Be a little more consistent with my writing-devoted accounts. It's easy to ignore that for a bit and then realize I haven't even touched those logins for weeks. If it really isn't beneficial to me, I certainly don't have to keep using those accounts, but I want a chance to talk about my stuff without feeling too uncomfortably "seen," haha.
- Get my Worldhopping Fairytale Monstrosity intro completed
- Get my intro to [Original Project #2] written
- Get my intro for the Alice Isn't Dead/Sparrow Hill Road written

My goals for November and beyond:
- Finish those intros, if I don't do it in October
- Get outlines started (or even done??) for [Original Project #1], Worldhopping Fairytale Monstrosity, and [Original Project #2]

As I mentioned above, my current goal is to get to a point where next year I might actually be in a better spot to really work on some of my fiction writing. For now, I'll try to do what I can to get the planning portions done so that it feels like something I'm more ready to do.

I am well aware that the new year is an utterly arbitrary designation, but it is a culturally significant one. And having some sort of "deadline" sometimes helps.
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petra ([personal profile] petra) wrote2025-10-02 05:38 pm

Crossovers that will never be unless I make them: The Expanse + The Thick of It

This is in the same vein of Politics in Space as the time I wrote Josh Lyman of The West Wing being Princess Leia Organa's political advisor because she'd inherited him from her father, Matt Santos Jimmy Smits Bail Organa, and then they observed Space Passover.

Malcolm Tucker of The Thick of It (link is very sweary) deserves someone he can really look up to (metaphorically) and cuss out (effectively).

I propose Chrisjen Avasarala of the Expanse (link is very sweary and also spoilery), who can give as good as she gets in the cussin' department. Malcolm can't physically look up to her, as she is a tiny Indian (subcontinent) grandmother who dresses fabulously. That won't stop her from kicking his ass.

I'm not sure he'd approve of her tactics, but he's on Team Earth all the way, unless one takes Peter Capaldi's legginess and runs with it to the wonderful world of Malcolm Tucker, Belter, sasa?

I am in the position of having studied English, Spanish, French, German, and Mandarin to the point of being able to mostly follow Belter Creole in audiobook form, where there are no footnotes to be had nor glossaries. Hell if that means I can write it, let alone write Malcolm Tucker Swearing in it, but now I want to try.

Kindly remind me that only about one other person on Earth, Mars, or in the Belt or Jovian system would understand this goddamn story, so it's not worth the effort, because I am very tempted. Unless of course it sounds like fun to you, in which case, can I get a beta offer?
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Van Irie ([personal profile] yvannairie) wrote2025-10-02 10:58 pm

Spaceposting 2.10.

I am back from my general holiday revelry and one of the last things I did with Saikku was watch Monkey Wrench. It has now joined the list of "indie animation I watch on Youtube where I genuinely cannot wait for the next episode", and furthermore I feel extremely called out by the fact that not a week later, after my first rewatch, I made a joke on Discord about how Shrike and Beebs are like if "fandom Bulkjack was interesting"

God. I do not know when to shut my fucking mouth do I.

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flo_nelja ([personal profile] flo_nelja) wrote2025-10-02 07:55 pm

Pumpkin Autumn Challenge : School Bus Graveyard (LilRedBeany)

Catégorie : Les songes maudits de Carmilla (Vampire - Manoir - Nuit - Surnaturel - Gothique - Horreur - Nouvelle)



Un webtoon, deux saisons sont sorties pour l'instant, je viens de commencer la deuxième. C'est très populaire, les élèves du club manga me l'ont recommandé, et même si je n'accrochais pas au style de dessin j'ai voulu essayer ; et en fait ça se lit très vite et très facilement !

Ashlyn est une lycéenne asociale. Un jour, elle se retrouve de force dans un voyage scolaire pour un travail de groupe. Après avoir visité une maison hantée, toutes les nuits, les six élèves du groupe se retrouvent dans un univers où des monstres viennent les attaquer.

Bien sûr c'est du survival horror, où il faut comprendre, être créatif, et savoir se battre pour survivre chaque nuit. Mais en fait, c'est plus subtil que je le pensais. La façon dont cela influence leurs vies dans la journée, la façon dont leurs situations familiales sont révélées peu à peu, les indices sur pourquoi ça se passe et ce qui se passe exactement... ça n'est pas du réalisme, loin de là, mais cela sonne vrai pour moi. Je comprends le succès !
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petra ([personal profile] petra) wrote2025-10-02 08:24 am

I am but a simple Bat-fanperson

And when the internet gives me things like this short about Mark Hamill vis-à-vis Batman: The Animated Series, what can I do but weep and ship and weep and ship?

(It was SO HARD to pick an icon for this post. Too many options!)
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Vriddy ([personal profile] vriddy) wrote2025-10-02 06:29 am

Community Thursday

Community Thursday challenge: every Thursday, try to make an effort to engage with a community on Dreamwidth, whether that's posting, commenting, promoting, etc.


Over the last week...

Commented on [community profile] booknook.

Commented on [community profile] getyourwordsout.

Posted on [community profile] bnha_fans... Going to go back to doing that weekly for a few months as the watch-along for the FINAL (!!! 🤯) anime season begins this weekend!

Signal boosts:

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mistressofmuses ([personal profile] mistressofmuses) wrote2025-10-01 08:51 pm
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Books read in September

This month I got through five books (plus a bonus short story)! Not quite where I hoped to be, but not bad either.

Witch King by Martha Wells
Book 1 of The Rising World
Fantasy - physical novel; read with Taylor
5/5

Kaiisteron is a Prince of the Underearth - an immortal demon, capable of possessing and utilizing the bodies of the recently dead. When he wakes up in a tomb, no longer occupying his most recent body, it's clear something terrible has happened. He and his closest friend and companion Ziede, who has been similarly entombed, have been betrayed by someone they trusted; timed to take them out of the picture as important political decisions are being made. Further investigation reveals that Ziede's wife, Tahren, is also missing.
They need to find Tahren, and find out more about who betrayed them and why. This sends them back to one of the last places Kai ever wanted to go: the Hierarch courts where he was imprisoned and tortured generations before, where he joined the rebellion that reshaped the world.


My thoughts, only minor spoilers:
I read this book last year, and then wanted Taylor to read it, so it became our most recent co-read (also good timing, because I wanted to reread it before the next book comes out.) I loved it last year, still loved it on a re-read, and am enthusiastically awaiting Queen Demon coming out next week.
The book shifts between two timelines. Part of it is set in the past, starting with Kai's first incarnation, and up through his capture by the Hierarchs, and his joining an unlikely-to-succeed rebellion. Then there's the present timeline, starting with Kai and Ziede waking up in the tomb, and their quest to return to the Hierarch courts to find a Ziede's wife.
I enjoyed both timelines enough that I was never disappointed when we moved from one to another.
There are a lot of different groups in play, and the story very much starts in media res, so there is a lot of information that the reader initially lacks context for. I didn't find it too overwhelming or confusing on my first read, though I think some readers did, and the ways in which information was given and established worked for me, though it did require some extra attention. I enjoyed already having some of that context on a re-read, though, and found some aspects much easier to track on the second read.
I really like the characters, and the worldbuilding itself. It's fun that it's a fantasy that very much is not generic pseudo-european in nature, and is also somewhat post-apocalyptic. The Hierarch's war, where they conquered every nation they came to, isn't fully understood, but it is inescapable that there are entire cities and nations left abandoned, or with only the smallest of settlements cropping up in otherwise ruined once-massive cities.
It also always feels like there's a lot more complexity lurking just off-page; like the characters have complicated histories with each other that we're only beginning to grasp and such. It leaves me excited for more set within this world, and I hope the next book builds on it in interesting ways.


The Dead Take the A Train by Cassandra Khaw and Richard Kadrey
Book 1 of Carrion City, apparently (though I haven't seen any information about the next book; another review I saw mentioned it will be a duology, but no idea when that next one will be out.)
Horror (Subgenres: urban fantasy*, eldritch, demonic, body horror) (f/f) - ebook novel
3/5

*The content of the book is much more horror-focused and gorier than I think of when I think of urban fantasy, but the tone of the book and the conventions of "hidden supernatural world that only some people are aware of, while otherwise in a modern urban setting" feels very urban fantasy.

Julie's life is pretty much the definition of being down on her luck. Her freelance demon hunting is hit or miss at best; while she's extremely talented at what she does, her confrontational personality makes it even less likely to translate to being paid for her work. Her priority being drugs and alcohol doesn't help, and if it weren't for the endless forbearance of her questionably-human landlord, she'd probably be a lot worse off. And then things start to get complicated.
Her ex boyfriend and occasional employer, Tyler, has been following his unstoppable ambitions to rise through the ranks of a law firm, Thorne & Dirk. The firm contracts largely with extradimensional demonic entities, slowly bringing about their favored breed of apocalypse, which is now approaching.
Her once best-friend and crush, Sarah, turns up at her doorstep, running away from her abusive marriage.
In trying to sort out the rest of her life, a summoning that Julie attempts turns out to have been a setup - the ritual from an old book a forgery deliberately placed to entrap her. Turns out the "angel" she summoned is also trying to hasten Thorne & Dirk's apocalypse.


My thoughts, some spoilers:
My feelings on this one were mixed. I mostly enjoyed the feeling and the tone of the book. The horror mapped well onto that urban fantasy vibe, and the body horror was very horrific at times. (Sometimes extremely gross, haha.) I liked a lot of the secondary characters, and the different types of magic that it hinted at for them. Dead Air, who seems to be sort of a high priest to a techno-god pantheon, was neat. St. Joan, the semi-human, semi-immortal golden-age Hollywood starlet landlady, was fun. Having a guy I also hate named Tyler made the primary antagonist feel extra punchable to me.
Unfortunately, the book never quite seemed to gel as a whole for me. I enjoyed the parts of it that felt episodic, yet that style felt at-odds with the overarching plot, like it wasn't quite striking the right balance between the two.
Aspects of it also got a little repetitive. It does lean heavily on demonic and body horror, and specifically the horror of unending suffering (you're going to be tortured horrifically, and it's going to last an undetermined length of time that you will be forced to fully experience, or worse, you'll be unable to die and this is now truly your eternity because that's what the demons do.) I DO find that a horrific concept, and it was effective the first couple of times, but then it just... kept coming up. That was sort of the main point of all the different demons they faced, whether it was the threat hanging over the protagonists, the primary method of control and punishment used by the evil law firm and the demons they're working with, the fate of some of the bad guys, the tragic fate of some of the bystanders, etc. It just sort of lost its impact after a while, because that just seemed to be the end result for everyone. Awful, but practically inevitable for the setting.
(Similarly, and this is probably kind of the point, but man, what is the point of devoting your life to the service of these bring-about-the-apocalypse cults? Most of the people aren't even being given false promises; it's literally "we'll torture you now, and eventually we'll torture you forever. You probably won't get any appreciable power or wealth for now, even." Who signs up for that? I expected that at least the law firm cult stuff would be people who thought they had a shot at some sort of eternal power and reward, but almost everyone seems aware that they aren't going to make it. With few exceptions they aren't like, secretly thinking they have a shot at being one of the select few.)
Also repetitive: Julie and Sarah were sweet, and I was very happy for their relationship to happen, but it got a little overly will-they-won't-they. It stopped being slow-burn "just kiss, you idiots; everyone knows you like each other!" and more "ugh, do we have to do yet another 'blush and pretend like we aren't into each other 'like that' and deny it' round??" It's very much a B-plot to the horror, but felt dragged out.
The title is catchy, but no one, living or dead, ever even takes the subway on-page. :( 
I'm also not entirely sure the plot arc felt complete. There is apparently supposed to be another book, but this one sort of felt like it just... ended. Julie and Sarah are at a fairly good spot, and their conflict is wrapped up for the moment, but Tyler seems to be in the middle of a winning streak, it's clear that nothing is really resolved, and the apocalypse still looms. If this was supposed to be a standalone, I would find that very frustrating. As it is, I only know that there's supposed to be another book because when I entered it on LibraryThing it told me it was book 1. I did not see anything in the book itself indicating that there's supposed to be another, and haven't seen any indication of when the next book might be coming out.

I feel like I'd really enjoy the characters and world as like... case-fic, or a monster-of-the-week TV show. Julie as a protagonist of an episodic series, fighting horrible demonic body-horror entities would be extremely fun, imo. That was largely where I thought the strengths of the story were: the cold open where she's at the bachelorette party gone horribly wrong; going with her intern to get rid of a demon that Tyler expects will kill her; getting the rare book to summon the "angel." That format would let some of those interesting side characters get the occasional spotlight, the bigger plot arcs could marinate in the background, and the b-plots like Julie and Sarah's relationship could be stretched out a bit more naturally. It felt like it couldn't quite breathe as well as it wanted to as a novel.


Tidal Creatures by Seanan McGuire
Book 3 of Alchemical Journeys
Fantasy/urban fantasy - physical novel
4/5

Lunar gods, from the well-known (like Artemis) to the lesser remembered (like Aske), incarnate in our world via human hosts. As Lunars, they have a task: taking turns to go through gates that take them to the space over the Impossible City, where they serve as a living moon to cross the sky.
The Impossible City is a mystery, a place that serves as the psychic manifestation of every magical, ideal place: Shangri-La, Atlantis, etc. The city itself is the target of the world's alchemists, because anyone who controls the city will have the power to control reality itself.
When a minor Lunar deity is murdered on her route, the other Lunars need to find out what happened. Standing in their way are the alchemists who have learned that the Lunars might be a gateway into the Impossible City, and who have no problem with collateral damage.


My thoughts:
This book was a fun read.
Roger and Dodger (the protagonists from the first book) were back as more prominent characters, after being mostly incidental to book 2. It was nice to run into them (and my girl, Erin! And Smita!)
I feel like the book itself is difficult to describe, because a lot of it hinges on the events and worldbuilding from previous books. This book itself did a good job of reminding me of the things I needed to know, though. A few times, I was worried that I was going to feel lost because it's been a while since I read Middlegame, but then the information I was specifically struggling to recall would be talked about, so that was kind of nice. (It's a struggle to balance "trust readers to remember shit" and "...but don't require them to reread multiple books as homework every time a new one in the series comes out.")
I like the various incarnate lunar gods, and all the ways in which they're similar and different to each other, fulfilling the same role, but also being unique characters.
The alchemists as a whole manage to continue to be awful, ha.
It felt like a lot of the plot came crowded at the end of the book, like I recall looking at it like "how are we going to wrap this up when I've got less than a quarter of the book left..." but it ended up feeling fine to me. It didn't feel rushed or like it skipped over things I needed to know.
The resolution of the sort-of-mystery plot didn't feel like a surprise; it seemed pretty much a given from the start, but it wasn't really trying to be a surprise, I don't think. Enjoyed it, will look forward to book 4 next year.


Duma Key by Stephen King
Horror (subgenres: haunting, demonic, curses... though none entirely played straight) - physical novel; read with Alex
4/5

Edgar Freemantle's life is derailed after a construction site accident leaves him with a lost arm, even more physical damage, and traumatic brain injury. After his marriage also falls apart, he moves out to Duma Key, a small island in Florida, wanting to take a break from his "old life" and maybe figure out whether he has the potential for a life moving forward. On Duma Key, in a rented house that's often been the temporary residence of famed artists, he discovers his own unexpected artistic talent. He also befriends his neighbor (also his landlady), the elderly Elizabeth Eastlake, and her assistant and caregiver Wireman. Edgar's paintings seem to impact reality itself, and start to reveal some terrible secrets that have long been buried on Duma.


My thoughts, some spoilers:
This is a LONG book, haha. Not shocking for King, but 769 pages is a lot of pages. Alex and I have been reading this since early May. It is broken up into such short internal segments that it was always easy to pick back up, though.
It's a bit of a slow burn as far as the horror is concerned: there are certainly hints of it even from the start, but it takes a while for the horror part of the plot to really take off. I found this effective, because it does make the "deal with the devil" aspect a little more impactful. Initially, Edgar isn't experiencing much in the way of a downside to his power, and is getting an awful lot of benefit, so it makes total sense for him to want to continue exploring and strengthening it. While it wouldn't have been the parlance at the time, he gets to fuck around a bunch before he has to find out, haha. (And this same pattern gets mentioned overtly toward the end, when they're looking at how these events played out for a previous victim; that eventually the "sugar candy"—the initial love-bombing temptation of what this power can provide—is no more, and the horror sets in.)
A bit tangential, and it is personal preference, but I did find it occasionally frustrating when the narrative would use... not even foreshadowing so much as self-spoilers, almost like it wanted to remind you that the horror would be coming. It's not that it doesn't make sense in context; the narrative is Edgar recounting the whole series of events, so he knows what's going to happen, and of course he feels strongly about what he wishes he had known or could have done differently. But as a reader, I find it a tension killer when the book tells me what's about to occur. Saying "I wonder, would she have stubbed out her cigarette so quickly if she knew it would be the last she'd ever have? She would be dead by the following morning." or "I wish I had given her an extra hug; I never saw her alive again." or something similar doesn't ramp up my expectations or dread, it just tells me how it's going to play out, and specifically not to have hope when the characters are trying to save someone.
The other thing that sort of lost me was the description of Edgar's paintings, ha. In context in the book, he is being hailed as a new master, an untrained talent that is producing surrealist masterpieces that are taking the local art scene—and maybe far beyond the 'local scene'—by storm... But I had to suspend my disbelief fairly seriously to buy into what was being described as truly being that amazing.
Overall, I did enjoy it! I enjoy the specific sort of mystery, where clues are revealed in old newspaper articles and letters and photographs. That shit is my jam, and it was fun to follow what happened to Elizabeth in the distant past and what was happening to Edgar now.


Diavola by Jennifer Thorne
Horror (subgenres: haunting, family, psychological, curses) - ebook novel
4/5

Always the black sheep of the family, Anna Pace isn't exactly thrilled to embark on a major family vacation, even somewhere as beautiful as the Tuscan countryside. Still, she meets up with everyone: her parents, her older sister, her brother-in-law, and her two nieces, plus her twin brother and his new boyfriend. As expected, it doesn't take long for family drama to rear its head: old grudges, current complaints, and the constant clashes of personality, priorities, and expectations.
That would be miserable enough, but it quickly becomes clear that there is something deeply wrong with the Tuscan villa they've rented... a malevolent presence in the home. It seems clear that the locals expect such things from the villa, and Anna finds out there is a dark history to the place. Yet even as things within the villa escalate—past slamming doors and spoiled food, to unexplainable actions and missing time—the rest of the family seems to refuse to believe that anything truly strange is going on.


My thoughts, minor spoilers:
This book felt like a horror movie, and one that I feel like I've seen before. (Family goes on an idyllic vacation, except everyone has major drama and seems to low-key loathe and resent each other, and then the paranormal shit starts up too.) Even so, this was a good entry into the subgenre!
The Pace family is awful, haha. While most of my personal family relationships are pretty good, the types of petty dramas being blown up, the way things are blamed on others, the demands being levied, the commitment to understanding things in the worst possible light... oof, it certainly feels like only slight magnification of very real, very miserable family dynamics. This kind of crossed the line a bit into the "oh, this is second-hand miserable to read about" at times, though. Which isn't a bad thing; it certainly put the horrible in horror, lol, but it was definitely sometimes a bit vicariously upsetting. 
The historic aspects of what the ghost was and where she came from really appealed to me. I'm not an expert on Italian language or history, or art history, but all those aspects that got twined together into the story all felt convincing to me! It was enjoyable.
I really liked Anna's ultimate resolution, even if she Went Through It to get there. It felt fitting and earned, to me.


Bonus short story (not counting short stories as books read, unless they're a whole anthology, but it is something I read!):

"Swelter" by Jules Kelley
F/F Romance - ebook short story
4.5/5

Grace heads back to her southern hometown in Georgia to surprise her brother at his wedding. His best friend Maya (also serving as the best man in his wedding) goes to pick Grace up and facilitate the surprise. Grace has had a crush on Maya for a long time... and the feeling might be mutual, even though Maya has always held herself apart, considering her best friend's sister to be off-limits.

My extremely brief thoughts:
This was cute and hot! Not much to say, really. It is a very quick read, but a nice get-together hook up!
There's a sequel short story about the same characters that appears to be set around Halloween, so I'll probably go ahead and read that sometime in October.


I also did DNF a book:

A Queen Rises by Lola Andrews

This is the one that I was kind of waffling on last month. It was supposed to be my brain candy ebook side-read, and I found myself not looking forward to it at all. :/ I felt bad, because this was a book I won in a giveaway from the author's newsletter (though this was years ago), and she seemed very nice and earnest about her work. I wanted to like it! It definitely had some good aspects, but felt like it needed a stronger editing round, because even several hours and about a fifth of the way in, it felt like I was waiting for the plot to kick off. The length was also part of what decided me: this was a very long book, and pushing through another 500 pages was a daunting prospect.
I may try to return to this one at some point, or see if something more recent from the author appeals.

I am currently reading four books:
- The Buffalo Hunter Hunter by Stephen Graham Jones (or I will be reading this one as of tonight)
- Dracula by Bram Stoker, keeping up with it in serial format via Dracula Daily and Re: Dracula
- Dead Silence by S.A. Barnes, my current co-read with Alex (a reread for me)
- Overgrowth by Mira Grant, my current co-read with Taylor (a reread for me)

I also did a thing I'd told myself I wouldn't do until the end of the year: I adjusted my TBR list. Only minorly! I shifted my non-ebook-horror books down a couple positions to make room for my much-anticipated new releases. (Silver and Lead and Queen Demon.) This way, they aren't in addition to the stuff on my list, but have instead been incorporated into the list. I'm hoping that gives me a fighting chance to hit that third stretch goal of completing my horror ebooks by the end of the year. I still might not quite get there, but I'm still hoping to try!
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petra ([personal profile] petra) wrote2025-10-01 06:25 pm
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My straight man

SO: "'We sell topsoil.' I never see anyone saying they sell bottomsoil."

Me: "I want my soil to be vers."

SO: "Hm?"

Me: "Soil that switches between top and bottom. I believe it's short for versatile, but I never inquired."

SO: "Maybe it's short for Versailles."
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autobotscoutriella ([personal profile] autobotscoutriella) wrote2025-10-01 01:58 pm

public indecency

public indecency

Summary: A club, an empty back alley, and a really bad idea.

Fandom: Apollo Justice: Ace Attorney
Characters: Klavier Gavin/Daryan Crescend
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Semi-public sex and some really bad-idea exhibitionism
Notes: Still working my way through old prompts from the Phoenix Wright Kink Meme, this one from 2011. I'm only 14 years late!

obviously it's Klavdar again, it'd be weirder if it wasn't )
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flo_nelja ([personal profile] flo_nelja) wrote2025-10-01 06:41 pm

Pumpkin Autumn Challenge : Le garçon sorcière (Molly Knox Ostertag)

Catégorie : Rester tout le temps avec Brindille (Amitié - Animaux - Soin - Aventurière - Changement - Jeunesse - Bande dessinée)



Aster vient d'une famille de sorciers où les filles apprennent la magie et où les garçons apprennent à se transformer en animaux, mais il veut apprendre la magie.

Aussi, une créature étrange fait disparaitre certains de ses cousins, et il devient ami avec une fille non-magicienne, ce qui est interdit par sa famille.

Malgré quelques thèmes sombres, c'est une histoire douce à propos d'apprendre à choisir ce qu'on veut faire et être ce qu'on est vraiment à l'adolescence. Contrairement à ce que je pensais, ce n'est pas explicitement trans, mais implicitement...

C'est peut-être un peu trop doux par rapport à la pression de la famille. Des fois cela semble cruel et à la scène d'après tout le monde est vraiment gentil et fait au mieux. L'ambiguité ne marche pas pour moi ; tout semble juste un peu trop optimiste.

J'aime beaucoup les personnages, et même si l'histoire peut être finie au tome 1, j'ai été ravie de les retrouver pour un tome 2 ! Il y a aussi un 3, que la médiathèque n'a pas, mais que je lirai à un moment ou un autre !
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pauraque ([personal profile] pauraque) wrote2025-10-01 12:06 pm

Carmilla by Joseph Sheridan Le Fanu (1872)

Spooky season is here! This month I'll be reviewing books and games with a horror or generally Halloween-ish theme.

This vampire novella is said to have been an inspiration for Dracula (which I'll be reviewing next week) and gothic horror in general. It follows a lonely teenaged girl named Laura who lives with her widower father and their servants in a remote Austrian country house. When a passing carriage crashes near their property, they rush to help and find that the occupants are two older women and a girl Laura's age. One of the women begs them to take in her daughter Carmilla and allow her to recover from the crash, promising to return for her in a few months after she's finished her urgent but nebulous business elsewhere. This is all a bit suspicious given that Carmilla doesn't really seem injured and her mother has given strict orders that she's not allowed to reveal anything about herself or her family. But Laura is starving for the company of a girl her own age, and as for Carmilla, well... the modern reader will have already guessed that she's starving too.

I really enjoyed this. It definitely is rich with gothic atmosphere and prose that's literary but very clear. (Victorian prose can sometimes be a bit... much for me.) It is also very very very gay. It's not subtle or subtextual; Carmilla's passionate desire for Laura is overtly romantic as well as vampiric. Laura responds to this with flustered confusion, feeling both intense attraction and fear. It could be read as a cautionary tale of not inviting the scary lesbian into the house, but I found it more complex than that.

spoilery thoughtsThough written by a man, much of the narrative centers women. It does evoke the idea that women's agency is scary, but it's less in the way of men being threatened by it, and more from the perspective of a young woman who is fearful of claiming it and abandoning the safety of gendered expectations and conformity. It's a man who eventually takes over the action of identifying and destroying the vampire (though at first Carmilla physically overpowers him!) which makes sense because he doesn't see the ambiguity, he only sees the threat. The conclusion leans into the ambiguity, though, saying that Laura was never quite the same after her encounter with Carmilla, even though she survived. I think it is important that Laura's first-person narrative is framed as being told to a woman, confiding her past experiences to someone who might understand them.

I thought it was interesting that Carmilla's mother and her female companion are never seen again. I assume that the mother wasn't her birth mother, but rather her vampire-mother, the one who turned her, and maybe the other woman was her vampire-grandmother then? I wasn't completely sure how this worked beyond the maiden-mother-crone imagery of the trio. It did seem obvious that the "carriage crash" setup was a con—pretend Carmilla is hurt, play on people's sympathies to get them to invite her in. The loose thread of what happened to the others also resonates with the idea that once female agency is awakened, there's no closing the book on it.

Carmilla is in the public domain, so you can read it on Project Gutenberg if you like. It's a quick read!
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Prix ([personal profile] prixmium) wrote2025-10-01 11:19 am
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Word tracking spreadsheet/start of October

I have mentioned probably that specifically since July my creativity has kind of crashed and burned. It sucks a lot, and I had a very bad few days recently with my mental health. I feel a bit better at the moment, but I am still worried about my ability to maintain this outlook.

Currently, I am signed up for the bingo challenge at [community profile] fandom_empire and have been trying to track things over at [community profile] communal_creators.

Someone over at the latter suggested this word tracking spreadsheet template. Decided to try using it from today.
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Vriddy ([personal profile] vriddy) wrote2025-10-01 06:41 am

September GYWO check-in, and titles or lack thereof

Checked in for [community profile] getyourwordsout! It feels gooood to have met my monthly goal, for once :D I'm still desperately behind but it feels like I'm happily waddling along so it's all good. I'm learning and making progress!

Not having a title for the cursed witch is starting to feel like a loose teeth I can't stop poking at. I have a potential "series" title, although I just had an insight that if that feels like too much, I probably can smash the two sequel ideas I had into one book and make it into a hopefully more manageable duology instead, BUT also I know everything often ends up longer than expected, but also I end up thinking about how to contrast the book titles except that I have no titles at all yet!! Lol.

Come to me, title, come to me... *lays down breadcrumbs and hides around a corner in wait*
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malurette ([personal profile] malurette) wrote2025-10-01 04:44 pm
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[courts] Nuit de l'Animation 2025 - partie 1

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Une premiere partie intéressante !