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I'm not really on social media these days. I run an ask blog on tumblr and I have a separate personal tumblr account that I post on occasionally, but I mostly just scroll when I'm bored and that's about it. I only really engage with other users when I'm answering asks about AO3. 

Yesterday I had an interaction that, while having it, I realized "oh, this person is REALLY online" and I had to take a moment and analyze how I had come to that conclusion. The interaction went like this (and no, I'm not super proud of my side either)

Someone: Can I report fics on AO3 that were written by AI?
Me: No. Those fics aren't against the TOS. What you can do is mute people who post those fics so that you never have to see them.
Really Online Person: I'm going to report them anyway
Me: That's an asshole move, but if you wanna be an asshole 🤷‍♀️
ROP: So you support AI fics? I'm so disappointed

I replied to that ask as well and I really shouldn't have. Both are now unrebloggable - but that's not the point that I'm getting at. It was them concluding that I "support AI fics" (or whatever their phrasing) that made me conclude that they were entirely too online. That's what I wanted to examine more. 

In my response to that last ask, I included the fact that some people with disabilities use AI to assist them. More than one person came to the conclusion that my sentence (1 sentence in a 5 paragraph response) was claiming that people who are anti-AI are ableist. At least one person decided that me saying someone was an asshole for reporting something that isn't against the TOS means that I am pro-AI.

I think my conclusion about the "online-ness" of these people comes from the fact that every statement made is in some way a reflection of someone's character, opinions, morality etc. This is also why everyone frontloads these conversations with "here is my stance" because simply stating facts invites that kind of leap. If you don't write 200 words about why AI is awful before your 1 sentence about how it's not against the TOS, then clearly you love AI. 

I've heard the phrase "post-fact society" used before, specifically about the US. But I think it can be broadly applied to the English-speaking internet. Facts don't matter when you're that online. What matters is where you stand on an issue and whether we're on the same side. If you say something that doesn't align with what I think, then we're on opposite sides. The friend that doesn't think 100% like me is my enemy. 

It's so incredibly similar to all of the "anti" stuff around fanfic. If you state that a certain kind of fic is allowed by the TOS or that writing something "controversial" is in any way okay, the conclusion isn't that you're making a factual statement. The conclusion is that you're stating your own preferences, values, personal habits etc. 

I'm rambling now, but I can't stop thinking about how this also lines up with performative social justice and virtue signalling etc. If everything you say online is meant to be part of a construct of you as a person, and if you want to be seen as a good person, then everything that gets said online aligns with "goodness" or "badness" in some way. There is no neutrality. There are no facts. There are just signs that you're on one side of an issue or another.
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Knowing that Cait Corrain was a Reylo makes their actions make a lot more sense. 

Not because of the ship they were interested. Not because of the fandom they were involved in. Rather, because knowing that they were active in fandom in a large, active ship with a lot of drama and a LOT of fic being posted, it really puts some aspects of the situations into context for me. 

I'm not on booktok or bookstagram, although I dip into booktube now and again, so I originally got this story via a vague post or two on tumblr and then a link to a twitter thread that was hard to read because I don't have an account. More recently, since Corrain was the subject of an article attempting to explain away their racist actions as a result of substance abuse issues [heavy side eye], there have been a few (deep dive) videos about them that showed me a few things:

1) Cait Corrain was obsessed with watching their GoodReads analytics
2) Cait Corrain compared themselves to other authors based on things like GoodReads review numbers
3) Cait Corrain frequently needed reassurances about their standing as an author

These all feel familiar to me as habits that, in fandom, can turn toxic. Obsessing over fic stats, thinking that a comment is "the least readers can do" after reading a fic, comparing your fics against another author's fics and getting angry about why they have more hits/kudos/comments... these are all things that a lot of us do now and again. The toxicity comes in when it isn't just a one-off venting of frustration and becomes the primary way you interact with fandom (via the Archive). 

I wouldn't be surprised to hear that Cait Corrain was a BNF behaving badly before they were an author behaving badly. If someone said Cait was heavily involved in fandom drama or a cancellation or a dogpile on a fellow author etc, I'd believe it. Those are similar tactics to what they did to those authors they one-starred on GoodReads. 

I saw a tumblr post a week or two ago about how it was only the weirdest fandom people who ended up getting published, and maybe that's informing my opinion here, but some of Cait's tweets that were showcased in that deep dive video were very reminiscent of things I've seen in fandom spaces. 

Or maybe bad apples are gonna bad apple no matter which bunch they're in.
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me: writes a thank you post to AO3 volunteers so tumblr folks have a place to drop words of encouragement that aren't Support's inbox
random tumblr user: congratulations on supporting a double genocide
me: .....
me: .....
me: ma'am, this is a Wendy's

Like, even with the fact that I can unfortunately guess where they got that idea from, I'm just flummoxed because what power do they think a charitable organization dedicated to the archiving of fanworks has in an international conflict? Even if AO3 or OTW did take a side, how would that affect anything literally at all???

I know I'm chronically online, but that kid is chronically. online.
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 perhaps its my own hubris, but I wrote the damn post
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You know that overwhelming urge you get to post a correction when someone is wrong on the internet? I'm currently feeling that with a vengeance. But the problem is that if I post a correction, that'll just draw more attention to the wrongness.

In this case, it's probably best to let the wrong exist in relative obscurity and just bite my fucking tongue until it bleeds.

I just hate the fact that people will read 1 person's account of a complex situation and just say, "yes, that is 100% truth and an exactly correct interpretation of everything. There is certainly nothing being left out or spun. nope. this random username I've never seen before can be trusted implicitly."

And like, I don't have any "inside information" to add, really. I just have critical thinking skills and an ability to smell bullshit from a mile away.
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Just continuing on my thoughts from the other day. I've said for a while now, kind of half-joking, that the OTW should put AO3 into read-only mode for a month and let everyone take a vacation. Rest. Relax. Recouperate. Maybe let go of a few grudges here and there.

The more I think about it, the more I think that's probably the only way that the OTW actually could make the kinds of changes people (including those in leadership at the OTW) want. Right now, everyone is spending all of their spoons just keeping AO3 running. It's too huge, and it's taking up all of the oxygen, all of the energy, all of the operating capacity.

Put AO3 into read only for 6 months. Give everyone some time off and time away. Allow the site more downtime to implement code changes. Give OTW 6 months free of fires that need to be put out and maybe they'll have some juice left in the tank to make some much needed changes.

Right now, no matter how much people want to do things, it genuinely is very hard. And that's putting aside all of the people and personalities involved. I'm just talking about time and energy.

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The OTW inhabits this weird dual space in my mind (and possibly in reality but I'm not bold enough to state this quite that affirmatively).

On the one hand, it's An Institution of Fandom - caps used because it's just that huge. Its hugeness is only partly related to the number of works and the number of registered users and the number of hits, etc. Its size within fandom is much more about the ideas it represents. Fan creators own their own works. Transformative works are legitimate creations. Own the servers and tell "the man" to go to hell. Fannish culture is worth preserving. By fans, for fans.

On the other hand, it's a bunch of cobbled together fannish projects. Like, imagine whatever zine or big bang or [insert thing you're into] got big enough that it had millions of people interested in it. Imagine the people running that zine in their free time because they love their fandom now trying to provide a service to millions of people literally every day. Now imagine the kind of drama you hear about with any particular fannish project and expand that out over a thousand volunteers - some of whom have been around for over a decade.

I don't really have a point here. I'm mostly just trying to find words to express ideas that I'm still working my way through. I spent a long time thinking of OTW as The Institution and it hasn't really been all that long at all since I realized it's actually just another fannish project and therefore subject to all of the same issues that every other fannish project is subject to - but scaled up by a factor of a hundred.

Been a while since I posted some thinky thoughts. Figured I might as well.

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sometimes vague posting isn't vague enough so you have to post about the concept of vague posting and do it on the site where you have the fewest people likely to see it
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So I watch a lot of booktok and this week, a lot of discussion has happened around a white author who wrote an interracial (I believe?) book in which at least one of the characters used a slur. I haven't seen the author's own video, just the reactions to it, and I haven't read the book but it's made me think about the idea of "writing diversely" and "reading diversely" and how a lot of it is just performative when it's done by white people.

White readers who "read diversely" talk so much about the fact that the characters in the book are non-white, but they rarely talk about why that matters or how they connected to them. They just reference the fact that they exist and then rate the book however they do. So many of them also seem to be reading this books as if they're eating their vegetables or something. They want to do something that the community has deemed "good" and they want to get credit for being "good" as a result.

The same seems so true of white authors a lot of the time. They know that readers want diverse characters and so they put "diverse" characters in their books. But the problems arise when the author doesn't actually know any people of colour in their daily life. An acquaintance isn't a good basis for a character. Watching TV and movies won't give you true insights. That's how these authors keep writing in stereotypes. It's because they're basing their characters on a surface-level understanding of who a person actually is.

Ben Aaronovitch is a white author based in England, and he writes characters of Nigerian background. He does a great job of it (according to Nigerian creators I follow) because he is friends with Nigerians and is surrounded in Nigerian culture. If I tried to write the same thing, it would turn out horribly because I know a handful of Nigerians, but only well enough to chit chat about work and the weather etc.

"Write what you know" is a trite saying, but I kind of think it applies here. So does "write what you love." If you're including Black or Indigenous or other POC characters because you have a true appreciation and understanding of the real human beings in those communities, your characterization is going to be a lot deeper and more nuanced than it will be if you're writing BIPOC characters in order to sell books or score points on twitter.

All that said, I'm very out of my lane on this one. I'm white and I've never attempted to write Original Fiction. I don't post on booktok or booktube, and I'm only tangentially interested in the romance genre. This is just something that I've been trying to work my way through this week as I watch these creators whose opinions I value.
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Reading the notes on my popular tumblr blog gets really depressing sometimes. Lots of insecurities. Lots of people who feel the need to turn any positive post into negativity. Fewer fanpol these days now that I use the block button very liberally, but they're still there. And this week, I once again got antis dropping into my ask box on my personal blog.

Dreamwidth feels much quieter and kinder and overall nicer right now, so thank you all for that.

I should probably extend my tiktok-break into a tumblr-break too. At least until after work stops being quite as crunchy as it is. Maybe I'll try to add some vacation days onto a weekend sometime soon. A vacation (even a staycation) would probably do me some good.

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I just looked up thanfiction on fanlore and the first paragraph alone was so much. Then I did a quick ctrl+f on the homicide mentioned and saw the way they updated their FFN profile in 2013.

I have known my fair share of dramatic people in my life, but thanfiction is an entire folio. holy fuck. the mind boggles.

wank

Aug. 2nd, 2022 08:42 pm
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I'm currently on the very outer edges of wank surrounding someone who should probably be listed with the MsScribes and Cassie Clares of fandom but somehow doesn't have much of a fanlore page at all.

Four days ago, I had no idea they existed. Now, the iceberg floats by me as I try not to get sucked underwater so that I can see the rest of the story.

One more topic to add to my never-ending list of fan studies papers I'll never actually write: Parasocial Relationships and Fandom BNFs

Instead, I think I'll just work on my own version of "AO3's Terms of Service for Dummies"
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I don't know how many of you have ever been on tiktok, but it's one of those apps that causes me dismay. At one point, I decided never to install it and I kind of wish that I'd stuck with that decision. But then back in February I was having a conversation about how "the youths" had no idea how to use AO3 and that everything available to help them learn is aimed at an audience more familiar with web 1.0 than with apps. 

So I downloaded tiktok and started making video tutorials. And because of the nature of the app (it starts showing you random things as soon as you open it and again after you post), I started seeing what was there. 

Tiktok is like other social media but faster. I see all the usual things: undisclosed sponsorships, people wearing their own merch, "link in bio", "shadow banning", the same memes I've seen on tumblr and twitter and facebook and even LJ. I see the same rise and fall and the same paths that creators take when their videos are monetized - whatever blew up becomes a "series". In a lot of ways, it just makes me tired. When I'm not overthinking it and how it could be used for research because it all happens at 5 times the speed of elsewhere.

But the part that's currently giving me all of the thinky thoughts is the filters. Tiktok has really great filters. I was on instagram for literally 10 minutes or less so I don't know if their filters do the same thing, but on tiktok there's a filter that can give a person a full face of makeup. From nothing to blush, highlight, bronzer, eyeshadow, lashes - and it moves with the person's face. There's another filter that will give you a beard. Another one that flashes you from male to female when you change the lighting. 

All of that requires some pretty intricate mapping of faces. Tiktok probably has millions of them stored away somewhere. I can't imagine what that database full of incredibly detailed information about a racially diverse, statistically significant number of humans could be used for - but my brain keeps thinking it's something terrible. 

So, to that end, here are some ideas for a cyberpunk dystopia based on the nightmarish thoughts that tiktok filters have dropped into my brain:
  • in a world where political unrest leads to protests in the streets, the government has built its greatest asset to protect law an order - the Dataset
  • at the start of the novel, protestors are being arrested at their jobs/homes etc and they have no idea how they're being identified
  • a low level coder who works on the Dataset realizes what it is and has to convince the protest leadership that they're legit
  • everyone starts wearing masks over their faces to hide their features - the masks are built out in caricatures or with other features that can hide the bone structure of the person underneath
  • coder needs to keep working on the Dataset while now being an undercover protestor - will they get caught? several close calls occur
  • eventually, coder finds other like-minded individuals also working on the Dataset. They band together to figure out a way to take it down.
  • the story culminates in a massive, world-wide protest against the powers-that-be. Coder and friends use that moment to implement the solution they've figured out. The Dataset is deleted. All backups are erased. 
  • Most people don't know what happened, but those who do still wear masks. 
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 I think I want to make a post that breaks down the various types of logical fallacy and applies them to anti rhetoric. 

But I also don't want to end up drowning in hate messages again. 

Have we reached an impasse? Or do I write it and post it here where people have a lot more sense - but also fewer people will actually see it?
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I just saw the video game name "Kentucky Route Zero" in text for the first time and holy shitballs folks, this entire time I've thought the middle word was "Rot" 🤣

this game is like 8 years old at this point. omg. XD

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 holy crap. my dreamwidth inbox is well over 100. what is this, a tumblr ask blog? 🤣

I've just taken a week off work but I didn't get as much juice out of it as I'd hoped to. Ah well. At least I had a week away. I'll have to figure out the recharging part some other time. 

how are you all doing? I've been thinking more thinky thoughts about social media, so expect a ramble about tiktok and filters at some point. And possibly some form of dystopic novella to go with it. 
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 I started off strong over here on DW and now I'm flagging. Sorry about that. These days I can only sustain active engagement with other human beings for so long before I need to recuperate XD

I've been reading through the comments on my posts though and, y'all - you're so amazing  ❤
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I've got a tiktok account where I post videos about how to use AO3. It helps people who are new to the site learn how to navigate and search/filter etc. and I also get to teach people who've been around for a while some new tricks they might not otherwise know. 

Yesterday, I someone asked about the Citrus Scale, so I posted about that. Which lead to posting about the FFN purges of 2002 and 2012. Which led to posting a brief and incomplete timeline of fandom purges. 

And somewhere in there, someone left a comment that said, "Wow. I hope AO3 never purges adult content."

And that's when I realized that so many people who are either new to fandom or new to AO3 have no idea how it came to exist or why it is the way it is. 

So I guess I'll add that to my list of things to make videos about? 

Brainstorm time: what do you wish your fellow fans knew about? What are cool tags or tropes or traditions or history that you think would be interesting to share? 

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Sometimes you just need to make a bulleted list.
  • all posts are public, leading to epic levels of wank
  • people reply at different points in the conversation, also leading to wank but more importantly, obscuring parts of the conversation and also making the full conversation only viewable to the initial poster
  • sharing anything automatically shares it with everyone you know on that platform because you can't have subgroups for your content unless you make multiple accounts
  • real fucking names
  • constantly changing usernames (looking at you tumblr) makes it impossible to know who you're even following/who's following you. it also makes it hard to keep track of friends
  • platforms are maximized for "engagement" not for community, so it's all about getting the likes and shares and who cares about deep diving anything
  • priority is mostly given to short form content which makes nuance difficult
  • everything moves so fast that it's difficult to have a follow up conversation on anything you post because people can't find the initial thought
  • everything is presented without the context of the posts that came before and after them - especially on sites that don't give you a date/timestamp
  • tags are communal rather than personal, so you never really know what you'll find in there. Everyone wants to organize their own space, but the items they put in their containers might be something you're allergic to (to stretch a metaphor)
I can't do twitter. Tumblr makes me feel more like either a spectator or a performer. Tiktok is every social media experience I've ever had, played through at 100x speed. No option is perfect, but some are way less perfect than others. At least for me.
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This is going to sound weird, but it's a thought that occurred to me today and I want to write it down before I lose it.

So, I watch a lot of youtube. I have several interests that keep me watching there pretty much daily, and one of the things I enjoy watching is drama channels. These are channels that talk about the goings on between other youtubers. I never watch the dramatis personae themselves, but I do enjoy listening to other people's commentary on them.

But today I was thinking about Gabbie Hana and Trisha Paytas and Jeffree Star and all the rest and how it seems like they're always in some form of drama or another with each other. (I'm not talking about the serious stuff here, just the interpersonal stuff)

And lots of people have pointed out that drama seems to bubble up when someone has a product to sell or when their views have dipped, and I think that's definitely part of it. But also, watching the drama is kind of like watching a reality TV show.

But today I was thinking about how fans aren't just watching the drama, they're participating in it. Liking and retweeting and commenting and flaming etc. are all things that fans do to insert themselves into the narrative and try to give the creator of their choice a "win" in whatever the situation is.

And that just kind of reminded me of computer games, specifically ARGs (alternate reality games). In those kinds of games, the real world is the platform and the network is the way the story unfolds. Kind of like how youtubers lives' are the platform and social media is the place where the story unfolds.

Both drama and ARGs require users to go to multiple locations (like sites and videos and tweets etc) to gather up all of the information. They also rely on large groups of people sharing information between themselves to get the full picture together. They're a type of collaborative storytelling with the player both watching and participating in the drama and the more they participate, the more invested they become.

I'm still obviously at an early stage with this thought, but I think it might be how people like Trisha Paytas and Gabbie Hana are still relevant so long after you assume people would be bored of them. They're masters of the ARG format, whether they know it or not.
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